Được dạy bởi Sư Yuttadhammo Bhikkhu
Dịch Việt: Việt Hùng
Lời người dịch: Trong các bài Hỏi & Đáp như vậy, tôi sẽ chủ yếu dịch thoát ý, chứ không chặt chữ. Một mặt đây là việc tôi làm để có thể nghiền ngẫm phần trả lời của Sư Yuttadhammo. Một mặt, tôi chia sẻ lại đây, và hy vọng nó hữu ích cho các thiền sinh Vipassana tham khảo.
Bài pháp ngắn này được đăng tải trên Youtube vào ngày 29/07/2010. Phần English transcript ở cuối bài. Link Youtube của bài nói ở đây: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HkgWBDwUtIM
Mặc dù đã cố gắng tốt nhất trong khả năng của mình, tôi chắc chắn không thể ghi xuống được một cách chính xác 100% tất cả các từ ngữ, đặc biệt là các từ Pali mà Sư đề cập trong bài pháp. Tôi sẽ tiếp tục cập nhật bản ghi, bất cứ khi nào tôi thấy được những điểm còn thiếu sót.
Con xin thành kính đảnh lễ tạ ơn Sư Yuttadhammo về bài pháp thoại ngắn quí báu này. Con nguyện cho Sư được mọi thuận lợi và sức khoẻ trong hành trình tâm linh của Sư.
Các bạn có thể tìm hiểu thêm thông tin của Sư Yuttadhammo Bhikkhu và các lời dạy của Sư tại trang web: https://www.sirimangalo.org/.
English Transcript (quickly jotting down)
Question: Hi, so welcome back to Ask a Monk. Today’s question is from the [aaa123]. I find it difficult to clear my mind of thought as they always pop into my head. And I can’t control it, when I try to be aware of my breathing but not control it. This is also very hard. Because I’ve become conscious and I automatically do so. Any tips?
Actually, this explanation is a clear indication that you’re practicing correctly. And what I mean by that is you’re starting to see the way your mind works. You’re starting to see that the nature of the mind is to automatically control things. It will try to control everything. We try to control every part of our experience to make sure that it is the way that we want it to be and not be the way that we don’t want it to be. So the first part of your question or the first part of your your problem, as far as thoughts popping into your head and not being able to control it, shows that you still have the idea that we’re trying to control things. And this is natural. This is the way that we look at things. We think we have to control everything. So when thought enters the mind, that’s wrong. Trying to stop it is, of course, our natural reflex. And that’s the wrong way to approach things. That’s what we’re starting to realize. You’re starting to realize that you can’t control it. There’s no way that you could possibly stop your mind from thinking, except temporarily if you practice tranquility, meditation to suppress the thoughts temporarily. But that is never a permanent solution. And in the end, this is why we teach people to let go and to accept the experience. So then when you try to go the other way at the same time. So on the one side, you’re saying you’re trying to control your thoughts and can’t do it. On the other side, you’re saying you’re trying not to control your breath, but you can’t do that either. So this is the fight between the two ways of looking at things, you know, trying to control and trying not to control the correct ways to not control, but even trying to not control is a form of trying to control, you know, forcing yourself to not force things. So there’s no way out of that.
The only way to become free from this is to see clearly that trying to control things is a problem. And as you watch the breath rising, falling, and you see yourself controlling it again and again and again. And you’re forced to start over again and again and again and forced to deal with the frustration, forced to deal with the impatience, the suffering involved with controlling, involved with forcing the breath. Your mind was slowly realize it’s like you’re teaching yourself as you would teach a child by direct experience, learning the hard way that this is the wrong way to deal with things. You’ll slowly let go and you slowly, naturally the breath will come by itself and there will be no more controlling.
You can’t stop yourself from controlling. All you can do is see clearly which you can get by this clear thought that clinging to things and forcing things is a cause for suffering. It’s something that is painful and stressful and is unhealthy.
OK, so I hope that helps. Keep up the good work. This is the first step in meditation. The first step in letting go is to see that you’re clinging. And I would encourage you to look carefully and see what your emotions are during the time that you feel like your breath is being forced. Are you angry or are you frustrated? Are you are you stressed? What is your reaction to this when you’re forcing things. And try not to get frustrated and try not to think that, you know, somehow your practice is wrong. Try to be patient and use it as a reason to build up patience in your practice and try to look at things and let things be the way they are. When you’re forcing things, let yourself force them, you know, see that you’re forcing and feel the pain and forcing and feel the suffering and just come to learn about that experience. So that in the future you can be clear that when you force things, this is what happens. OK, again, keep up the good work. Glad to hear that someone’s actually meditating.