Được dạy bởi Sư Yuttadhammo Bhikkhu
Dịch Việt: Việt Hùng
Lời người dịch: Trong các bài Hỏi & Đáp như vậy, tôi sẽ chủ yếu dịch thoát ý, chứ không chặt chữ. Một mặt đây là việc tôi làm để có thể nghiền ngẫm phần trả lời của Sư Yuttadhammo. Một mặt, tôi chia sẻ lại đây, và hy vọng nó hữu ích cho các thiền sinh Vipassana tham khảo.
Bài pháp ngắn này được đăng tải trên Youtube vào ngày 10/10/2010. Phần English transcript ở cuối bài. Link Youtube của bài nói ở đây: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dtoW9opCeoY
Mặc dù đã cố gắng tốt nhất trong khả năng của mình, tôi chắc chắn không thể ghi xuống được một cách chính xác 100% tất cả các từ ngữ, đặc biệt là các từ Pali mà Sư đề cập trong bài pháp. Tôi sẽ tiếp tục cập nhật bản ghi, bất cứ khi nào tôi thấy được những điểm còn thiếu sót.
Con xin thành kính đảnh lễ tạ ơn Sư Yuttadhammo về bài pháp thoại ngắn quí báu này. Con nguyện cho Sư được mọi thuận lợi và sức khoẻ trong hành trình tâm linh của Sư.
Các bạn có thể tìm hiểu thêm thông tin của Sư Yuttadhammo Bhikkhu và các lời dạy của Sư tại trang web: https://www.sirimangalo.org/.
English Transcript (quickly jotting down)
Everyone, welcome back to Ask a Monk. Just a reminder that I’m still looking for videos of you practicing meditation, either doing the mindful prostration, walking or sitting. As I talked about in my 200 video upload. So please post responses to that video, not this one, showing yourself meditating and there should be a link. I’ll place it right here and click on that link and post a video of yourself meditating as a response to that video.
Question: OK, so today’s question comes from Minor-Players who asks: I can get this heavy lost feeling and struggle to find my breath. I can only find my breath when I resolve to employ a lighter awareness, floating along in aware of the present moment. Is this sinking mind or do I just suck at this?
You don’t suck at this. Get that off the table. Um, this is actually I think the answer I’m going to give is probably quite similar to an answer I’ve given before. I’m not sure to what video, but, uh, it seems there was a similar question. And this is, of course, a reoccurring question, one that comes up for most people. The first aspect is in regards to losing the breath. And we have this obsession that somehow we have to stay with the rising and falling. This is our controlling mind. The mind needs to control our experience of reality to control the way things are. This is the cause or one of the causes of suffering, our need to control, its attachment, the inability to accept things as they are. It’s also wrong meditation practice. But, that’s the case for everyone. We’re learning. We’re practicing.
So what what’s happening here is you are expecting things to be a certain way. They’re not that way. And you’re trying to force them to be that way by employing some special technique of creating a different state of awareness. What you’re neglecting to focus on is the experience as it is. This experience of the heavy feeling, of the heavy lost feeling. Now, I guarantee that there’s no lost feeling. There’s a feeling of heaviness and maybe depression, which is based on anger, the disliking, the upset, the suffering. And then that’s that’s judged by the mind to mean that you’re lost, to mean that you’re bad, that you suck and so on. Or whatever it appears to you this feeling that something’s wrong. And there are many different feelings like that. This is the reality that’s there in front of you. And this is what you should be focusing on, focusing on that feeling and seeing it for what it is. This is the meditation practice. This is why we’re practicing to change the way we react to these things instead of seeing it as a feeling as bad as something that is unacceptable, that we have to change, that we have to fix. The practice is to see it for what it is and be able to let it be just as a feeling. And actually, once you can let it be, it doesn’t last. These feelings are not. They have no power over us, unless we give it to them. And what you’re doing is giving it power. So every time it comes back, it becomes more and more of a monster. The more power you give to it, the more importance you place on it. Once you see it for what it is, accept it for what it is. It’s like untying a knot. It just disappears. And you should be able to see that.
OK, so don’t try to find your breath when your breath is missing, it’s because of this feeling. And this is what I talked about before. The reason your breath is not smooth is not there, it’s not come is because of this feeling. Because there’s something else that your mind is focusing on, as something that is taking the mind and the body out of its ordinary state. And you should focus on that. There’s no reason to go back to focus on the breath. Now you’ve got something new, then something quite important, something that has very much to do with the problems that exist in our minds and in our lives. So good luck with that.
And just to say that that’s a sign that you’re practicing correctly, that you’re able to see these things, you’re able to see that you can’t control your breath. You have to employ this special technique. It doesn’t last. And you keep coming back again and again to this frustrated state of not being able to keep things calm and smooth and so on. So try to learn to let go and let it be. And that’s what the practice does for you. You just say to yourself, depressed, depressed, heavy, heavy, even just feeling, feeling. You’ll find that it clears up quite quickly and you’re able to progress. You’re able to see things in a new way. And that’s what the meditation is for. OK, so thanks for the question. Keep them coming.